Memoirs of a Mountain City (1)

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Memoirs

2019.8

Chongqing Essay

Maybe it was because I missed the casualness of the past that I decided to come to the mountain city of Chongqing. Although I have been to many countries in the past few years, I really have no travel experience worth mentioning in China. This act of self-indulgence without hesitation can also help me slowly make up for the shortcomings in my travel history in China.

Coming to Chongqing this time was definitely unexpected. Part of the reason was that I felt it was a bit of a waste if I didn’t go anywhere during the vacation for a few days. On the other hand, I knew that when I returned to Beijing, I would definitely stay in my room. , entering a lazy state, so no matter from which perspective, it is imperative to make full use of the vacation.

From a macro perspective, life is intertwined with timelines derived from different choice points. We make large and small choices every day, and these choices continue to create new timelines, so that many people think Life is a collection of all uncertainties. So is choice important? From a microscopic perspective, many choices are inconsequential, such as what to eat today, what color clothes to wear, whether to go out, whether to choose to return to Beijing or to continue a spiritual journey... Indeed, viewed in this way, a single choice is not What kind of significant impact will it have on our lives, but they are indeed constantly shaping our character and values.

Everyone envies successful people or free and easy people, because we are all easily attracted by things that we cannot have yet, so we will use people who have these things as our role models and become the topics of conversation after dinner. But in fact, there are many invisible choices hidden behind all these phenomena. Perhaps the freedom that we see in our eyes boils down to the fact that those people follow their inner inspiration whenever they have the opportunity, and those who seem to us Success is just one more hour of self-improvement and recharging every day. Most mediocre people probably ignore the possibility that these choices can bring changes to our lives, and the great value of every little thing.

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The pace of running

It's up to you

Where is the end point?

It's up to you too

Walking in the mountain city of Chongqing, I felt that I was lonely again, without the worries of work, the company of friends, and the greetings from my family. At this moment, I was a little overwhelmed. I found that I was no longer the person who flew to the city without hesitation. I live in New Zealand, and life has more or less smoothed my edges, making me somewhat unfamiliar with this kind of freedom and loneliness. In fact, in the final analysis, I still don’t have enough courage and capital to pursue my original commitment to the end without hesitation. I cannot pursue that inner purity as firmly as the male protagonist in "Into the Wild". In the end, what is before me is reality. The balance between doctrine and idealism.

It is undeniable that the various bonds we form due to the influence of our surrounding environment cannot be easily severed, because the concept of "I" is shaped by both internal and external factors and is destined when we are born in this society. We will have both natural attributes and social attributes. In Jung’s words, it is the No. 1 personality and No. 2 personality of each of us, which exist in our consciousness and deep consciousness respectively, and our No. 1 personality is shaped by this society. The products we produce show society how they expect to see us and how they react to various social environments.

In the past two days, I have been thinking about whether people's fate is doomed. If it is doomed, should people give up their efforts and just take things as they come? If it is destined, do the various choices we face still have meaning? In fact, this is a classic question in the field of religion and philosophy that everyone is thinking about. We always seem to be unable to explain the reason for something that is elusive but worthy of awe, such as destiny, but we dare not make any unreasonable comments.

Resident singer who makes a living playing guitar

The old naughty boy singing loudly on the roadside

the people who have been in your life

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In my opinion, everyone does have his or her own destiny wheel. It is not difficult to see that many people around us have their own specific destiny trajectories. It seems that some people are destined to have a mission, while others are destined to live a lifetime. Being mediocre and doing nothing, some people are doomed to be trapped by love, and some are doomed to be frustrated in the workplace. Such remarks seem to make me fall into a circle of fatalism. But I think destiny is not unchangeable. The reason why most people fall into the strange circle of destiny is because most people don’t know how to look back at their own hearts and carefully observe their own destiny trajectory, so that in the end they cannot escape the limitations of destiny, or Even if some people look back at their hearts and discover these so-called restrictions, they still don’t have the courage to escape from these restrictions in the end, because escaping from restrictions generally requires courage and perseverance that are different from ordinary people, and few people are willing to deal with this uncertainty. Make sacrifices for sex.

According to Buddhism, all the limitations we face are caused by cause and effect, and cause and effect are interlocking in the long river of time of the soul. The suffering suffered in this life is not just the cause and effect of this life. Looking back at the first three No one knows what happened in the next three lives. The only thing we can do is to try our best to live out the attitude we should have in this life through our efforts in this life. Even if this life is destined to endure hardships that are unbearable for ordinary people, we cannot give up on the spot. .

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The most interesting thing about travel is not just the folk customs and mountains and rivers, but the people you meet during the trip, the things you experience, the insights you gain, and the stories you see about other people. I am a person who likes to listen to stories, so I like to order a glass of juice and sit in a bistro all afternoon, just to hear the stories in the songs of those who play the guitar, and every careless message left on the sticky notes on the wall. .

I walked around Ciqikou Ancient Town all afternoon, and I was always attracted by the singing coming from a certain street corner or alley. Sometimes I would stop and enjoy it. If I really liked it, the most likely thing would be to contribute some drink money to the pub in exchange for singing. I listened to a few close-up and moving songs. I changed to several pubs this afternoon. I liked to sing along gently when they sang. Even if it became the background music drowned by the sound of guitar, it still made me feel very happy. . Sitting by the window, you can also vaguely hear the singing from other pubs one after another. It sounds like a smokeless war between different singers. I hope more people will stop and listen to their singing. While enjoying the singing, you will often find notes from different travelers pressed under the table glass in the tavern. Each note has a paragraph written on it. Behind each paragraph, there seems to be a paragraph that cannot be said for three days and three nights. It’s really amazing to think about this feeling after finishing the story. How many timelines have been intertwined in this tavern, and how many such taverns on this earth are intersected by countless timelines.

Those timelines that once intersected

Notes with stories written on them one by one

We may all think that we are the protagonists in life, carrying the halo of the protagonists and making waves when we walk, but at the same time we are passers-by in the stories of many protagonists. For any of the owners of the note paper, to them, I Maybe they are just passers-by who read their stories. In fact, there are no protagonists or supporting characters in this world. Among all living beings, we are all the same. We all have our own troubles and a story that we spend our lives writing. But there are Some are long, some are short, some are inspirational, some are decadent, none are the same in a complete sense, and the world is a big web made up of different people, and this big web carries countless joys and sorrows, joys and sorrows.

After staying in Chongqing for 3 days, I still couldn’t reconcile myself to it. It was already so close to Chengdu, so I might as well go there and it would make me miss Chengdu for a long time.